Thoughts from a Random Mind

            I’ve been pretty transparent about my profane flareups, usually when I get frustrated by something that isn’t going well, like a repair project or something of that nature. I am painfully human; I know it ... God does too. 

Well today it happened again. I bought a cordless tool that required very minor assembly. There was a ‘U’ shaped, compressible safety handle that had to be attached. It came with a 4” or so long screw that went thru the handle to stabilize it. The handle had to be secure, or the tool wouldn’t work. I am very prone to misplacing things. It’s been a problem my entire life, without exaggeration. Well, I misplaced that screw. Had no earthly idea what happened to it. It could be anywhere. I started with my cussing under my breath and berating myself. I looked EVERYWHERE. I looked in things, under things, everywhere I had been. I was beginning to flip out a bit. In the midst of this mini-meltdown I stopped, asked the Lord to forgive my outburst and asked Him to PLEASE help me find the screw. Minutes later I began berating myself. I freely acknowledge that this is a horrible way to act for ANYONE, but it should have NO PLACE in the life of a follower of Christ. I opted to use Flex-Seal glue to affix the safety handle, having given up looking for the screw. I put the tool away in the shed, and continued to call myself names. Pretty childish behavior, which I readily admit. Admitting to myself defeat and intending to move on, I went back out front to put away my water bottle and the box the tool came in. It just so happens that I looked in the box again and lo and behold, there was the screw. I was humbled. I knew all over again that God really did love me and though He doesn’t want me to react that way to my difficulties or frustrations, He will give assistance when asked. I don’t understand (and probably never will) WHY God loves me, but THAT’S what unconditional love is. He was kind enough to answer my prayer in spite of my infantile behavior. I embarrass myself every time I overreact in an inappropriate way and end up apologizing for my words and actions to my Heavenly Father. May He never give up on me ... I know He never will. I strive to be the best version of myself each day. With the Holy Spirit’s help, someday I’ll make it. Pleasing God is more important than pleasing myself.

            I don’t know if anyone can relate to this. Take heart my brethren, God’s love and patience is far greater than our greatest weakness and His forgiveness is always available for those who ask for it. Until next time, walk with the King & be a blessing.

In His Name & for His Glory,

RL Keller

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